Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Pics and Videos

Luca and Leo get a bath:
two babies

Eno Festival 2012:
eno 2

eno 1

eno 3




In July, far far I fly

Yesterday, Luca spent the day with Mamaw while I was working from 11am-4:30pm, because Ash had his first physical in 10 years (clean bill of health! Though we still have the blood work to go...). Apparently, he was content the whole time! They gave him a bath. He ate blueberries, bananas, and tons of roasted red pepper hummus. He slept from 1:10pm-3:30pm, his longest nap ever!! I had pumped both breasts twice the day before (and only got 2.5 ounces of milk) so he had that too. He was not clingy or anything when I got home, he just wanted to nurse a whole bunch.

Then I drove him downtown to get Ash from work and he fell asleep in the car. He slept through the first ten minutes of "Moonrise Kingdom", woke up and pointed at stuff on the screen and made appropriate noises (dog barking, car vrooming, etc) and gave me these smiles that were like "wow mommy, is this magic?" (he is not allowed to watch screens normally) Then he fell back asleep for the rest of the movie. We went home at 11:30pm and though he did wake up, there was no meltdown and he went back to sleep until he woke me a couple hours later to nurse. Could have been a stressful day (and it would have been 2 months ago), but it wasn't!

Today I got home from work to find the toilet brush in the toilet. And it wasn't daddy who put it there! I guess I'm lucky that's ALL I found in the toilet.


Friday, July 6, 2012

Quick Updates

Copying my facebook status updates because I'm lazy:

 "Luca took a couples steps yesterday without holding on to anything. He also fed himself from a bowl with a spoon, said "mama", and drank from a cup without a lid (with hilarious yet surprisingly successful results)! My baby is turning into a toddler."

"AND we got an early birthday present this morning (Museum of Life and Science membership) which I can't wait to enjoy on this over 100 day!! Luca will be 11 months old next week, and he will be going with me to the Eno Festival for the first time, and I will be turning 24. I had pie for breakfast yesterday. LOOK AT THIS BIG LIST OF GOOD THINGS!!"

" He started pointing. He signs "nursies" and "more"."



When he signs "more" he doesn't pinch his fingers together yet. He just hits his hands together twice (for "more" bites, but also when the plate is empty he will sign "more"!). And when he points, he makes these little grunts... like unspecific "oh, that" noises. 

I feel like my herbs aren't working as well lately. I feel more tired. I really wish I had gotten some video of my labor and birth. Or at least more pictures. I may not have any other children and I'd like to remember that day! I also feel really conflicted about the more-children-dilema. I feel like there are REALLY important things one can only learn about life by having siblings. There are ways your heart is opened up by having brothers and/or sisters. But I don't know if I could live through it again... I don't know if my mental health will ever recover from this to the point where I would be confident enough to take the risk of having a hard baby again. And now that Luca's getting older and we can start thinking about doing our favorite things again (like travel, reading, playing shows, ANYTHING THAT REQUIRES TWO HANDS)... I don't want to go back to that baby stage ever again. 

Luca has a fever of 102.9 (or last I measured, before giving him ibuprofen). No other symptoms, just started getting warm Thursday around noon and has been warm since then. I have to work at 8am tomorrow, so I can't hold my poor sick baby all day :(

After working at the home day care... I'm not sure that's what I want to do after all. But that's ok, that's why I wanted to try it! I keep thinking about a job somewhere like the Museum of Life and Science... but I have also been mildly interested in maybe being a counselor/therapist/social worker of some sort. This is mostly inspired by reading "Non-Violent Communication" by Marshall C. Rosenburg. I can't think of any work that could possibly be more important than that. But I am definitely called more and more to the working-outside-of-the-home thing, and Ash is really settling into the stay-at-home parent thing (not right now, obviously, right now we are working about the same number of hours each week). 

My camera is broken so I'm not taking as many pictures lately :( We are going to the Eno Festival on Sunday!! I can't wait to take Luca. I hope he feels better (he seems to be getting better... he had skipped all meals and just nursed until tonight, when he ate his weight in shepherd's pie). I'm missing the "Fever Year" screening downtown outside because I'm home with the sick baby.