Rough day with a good ending.

Today he cried inconsolably... all day. It was hell to watch and so exhausting... I needed to sleep so bad and he just couldn't sleep because of his belly ache. Today was finally that day I was in denial would ever come... the day you just lay in bed and cry because it's all you have left in you to do. He did stop crying to stare at me crying, though. I wasn't too scared about my breakdown (I'm very carefully watching for signs of PPD in myself), because the whole time I was just staring into his eyes and thinking about how much I love him. There seems to be a trend of moms saying that a lack of bonding goes along with PPD?

Ash bought some colic calm... it is BLACK AS NIGHT because it has a bunch of vegetable charcoal in it, and everything it touches looks like I dropped some coals from the fireplace on it. I was really not wanting to resort to giving him anything, but I finally tried this and it instantly made him calm enough to sleep. I just gave him half doses 3 times today, and each time it calmed him enough to take a small nap. Not a cure, but certainly a help.

I'm sending Ash out to get some coleif tomorrow as well, which is lactase. I'm lactose intolerant so I'm suspicious he is having a hard time with all of the foremilk that I have (as a result of my oversupply).

I'm also going dairy/wheat/egg free this week, because I kept a food diary last week and those are the foods that I eat every day.

I looked up "colic" online and it is known to peak between 6-8 weeks... and he is 7 weeks. So I guess that's why it got so bad today... makes me feel better to know it's normal for it to get worse before it gets better.

Our friends Greg and Danielle came over and baby Leo too, of course.... and they brought SHEPARD'S PIE!!! I ate soooo much of it. I was starving, I barely ate all day because I was trying to comfort Luca. By this time, Luca had tired himself out so he just slept in my arms while I got to have some nice conversation (excited about seriously planning to build our "house"...).